"If you begin to regret, you'll dull your future decisions and let others make your choices for you. All that's left for you then is to die. Nobody can foretell the outcome. Each decision you make holds meaning only by affecting your next decision." -Erwin Smith
I had nothing to do weeks before the exam started. I reviewed my notes well and grew bored while I was at home. I decided to watch some anime just so that I could catch up on things. What better way to refresh anime knowledge than to watch the usual anime love stories? I just had to pick Kamisama Hajimemashita. I was curious to see why this anime grew popular a few years back. I found out why when I saw the handsome faces of the characters there. Sure enough I too grew a crush on one of them.
Main Cast of Kamisama Hajimemashita
I didn't expect too much action since it was a love story. I didn't know how cheesy it was until Nanami, the heroine, suddenly thinks about her feelings for Tomoe, her fox familiar. The story then went worse when we find out that Tomoe doesn't really hold any feelings for Nanami. The second season though, shows Tomoe's growing feelings for his master. Which again is really cheesy. The two still haven't confessed to one another and don't even know if they really held feelings for each other or if their feelings are true. I don't really like Nanami and Tomoe together, I want Nanami and Jiro instead, although that will defeat the purpose of the entire anime series. Jiro is Kurama's older brother back at the Kurama mountain where all the tengu lives.
Now I don't want to rant about my crush in this series, the only clue I could give to you is that he's a snake. That's all it takes for an anime fan to know who my crush is. To those who don't really watch anime or know Kamisama Kiss, It's Mizuki.
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I wasn't able to continuously post for the past weeks, not because I'm busy, but because the keyboard is broken. We have two laptops, one is a tablet and the other is a standard laptop. The standard laptop has 8,I,K and the , broken. That's why I have to type in the tablet just so that the broken keys won't interfere with my post. We then bought a separate keyboard for the standard laptop and things went better from then on. Until the letters B and N broke on the keyboard. It was like I needed four hands just to type on that laptop. I then used the tablet so that my words won't have any missing letters and so that I could type comfortably.
A week ago, Wednesday to be exact, the tablet has gone missing and I grew too lazy to type on the standard keyboard because I would have to keep switching keyboards so that I could form the word I desired. I posted two (I think) last week and couldn't even push myself to do the third because of the difficulty in typing. My mother was so worried because I was the one who lost the tablet. I had just placed it behind the driver's seat and once we got home it disappeared. We checked every where, from my grandmother's house to my uncle's church but it couldn't be found. My mother got really down during those times and lost all hope in finding it. I knew to myself that the tablet was just there, like it was so close to use yet we're too blind to see it.
This morning, I was fixing my things to get prepared for the first day at school for the second quarter. I had to take out some things so that I could properly dispose of the crumpled papers inside. When I lifted my bag, I grew suspicious. It was quite heavy even when I removed all my stuff inside. Guess what I found in my bag.
This anime was introduced to me by my classmate. I wasn't sure if it was good or not until she told me a short summary of an episode. I thought that it was a pretty creative idea so I decided to watch it since I finished Kamisama Kiss. In the end I liked the anime and still have two more episodes to go before finishing it.
When people die they are either sent to heaven or hell. In Death Parade that doesn't seem to be the case. When people die they go to Quindecim. An arbiter will be the one to judge if they will go to heaven or hell or in Quindecim terms: Reincarnation or the void. Once two souls enter the in-between space, they will have to play a game in order for the arbiter to judge their personality. It was a pretty interesting concept especially when the games they play have a lot more gruesome twists to it.
Main Cast of Death Parade
Arbiters aren't your ordinary humans. They have no emotion, and are merely puppets created for judging souls for eternity. One cannot quit being an arbiter, and an arbiter cannot easily die for it will make them too close to being human. These were the rules of an arbiter, but our main hero Decim, is an arbiter created with human emotions. Decim encounters a soul who remembers how they died, when they clearly weren't supposed to because they lose their memories from the shock of their deaths, he has no clue on how to judge her and was unable to convince her to play any game.
Nona, the greatest arbiter, favored Decim and decided to help him by erasing the girl's memories and making her as Decim's assistant. This is how the anime went on for a while until Chiyuki gained her memories back and her body slowly starts turning into a mannequin, for human souls cannot last long in the in-between. The final two episodes will decide on Chiyuki's fate, will she turn into a mannequin? or will Decim finally lets his emotions go and finally judge her?
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Oh birthdays, the celebration of the day of your birth. We used to shower in presents from our parents, our aunts and uncles, our godmothers and godfathers. It was heavenly back then. Let's take a look at the present. Are you still receiving gifts? Do you still have someone to celebrate your birthday with? Did people greet you on your birthday? Well at least you have those. This year, I didn't get any.
It was quite ironic that my birthday lands on 'Buwan ng Wika', a month where we celebrate our language and culture, when I can't speak our language fluently. I was raised in an english speaking environment and grew up knowing english only. Now in Buwan ng Wika, our school holds programs and events every year on a special date. Although, all these stuff had to happen on the 26th friday, which was my birthday. I didn't mind it, it was cool. This way, no one would have to greet me with annoying 'happy birthdays' then ask if I'm ever going to hold a party. I know they're just greeting for the food.
I wasn't in a bad mood then. We had finished our dance performance and my mom came early. We asked permission from the head of the highschool facility and went on our way home. I had already prepared myself for relaxation and quietness. But that dream was easily shattered when my mom said that we'll be attending my uncle's wake for the fourth time. This instantaneously brought my mood down. I have nothing to do in my uncle's wake. I would draw in a corner or read or write fanfictions. There wasn't any internet at my church so I can't chat with my friends either.
What's more is that my family is busy. Sure they greeted my a happy birthday, but that day didn't even felt like a birthday anymore. It was such an uneventful day. Quite depressing isn't it? I can't exactly blame my uncle either because he died on the 22nd, monday. It was my first time experiencing a lame birthday that made me want to regret ever being born.
A post about a blog, that's somehow ironic. Even though if it doesn't make sense please bear with my rants for a bit. Lately as you've noticed that my posts gets weirder and weirder then suddenly back to normal again. I could say that this has become one of my stress relieving works. My usual outlet would be drawing, reading, or even writing. Although, this time I've grown tired of writing stories. Stressed out to comprehend what I'm reading and my inspiration has worn out to draw.
I've then seen blogs as an opportunity to literally type down all the things n my head. I'm the kind of person who's quiet but has a lot of things in their mind. Especially when most things aren't the words to say to another human being. I had once thought to myself "What if I told all this to another person, what would their reaction be?". There are many ways to react to my thoughts, and majority of it is negative. I had decided to shut myself away from the world ever since I've realized that I'm not normal. I guess I'm a little too imaginative. Well in the end, as long as the heavy feeling in my chest is gone, I guess that's all that matters.
Another fantastic chapter drawn and written by Yana Toboso. The truth is finally revealed as well as Ciel's next move! The secret of this case was so simple!
Chapter 118 That Butler, Remodeling cover
The story continues with Agni, prince Soma's butler, barging in the conversation. Elizabeth had escaped from the manor, although Sebastian wasn't so surprised since he knows about it. Ciel grew frustrated that Sebastian didn't even chase after her. The butler then explains that it is because something has greatly captured Elizabeth's heart which results to her acting that way. As Ciel pondered on their next move, there was a ruckus downstairs.
Angrily, Ciel went to investigate only to find A sea of children had filled the first floor of the building. Price Soma and Agni explains that they're having another one of their 'Food Drives'. The prince was explaining that he holds up Food Drives every once in a while in order to help the poor children at the streets of London. Agni was very well aware of Ciel's rage and had tried to silence his master. When Ciel asks the children why they kept coming back, their reply was that the food was great and that the people were nice to them. That's when the idea struck Ciel like a bullet. He had laughed at himself for not seeing the obvious.
The Phantom Five making their grand entrance
Every fourth Saturday, a show is performed to entertain the guests. But this time, Ciel's plan had already begun. A new group of boys stole the spotlight calling themselves the "Phantom Five". They immediately stole the hearts of the audience. Soon we're shown that Ciel had bought the place already stating that he only spent half of what he expected to pay. Which concludes that Ciel is probably a billionaire, or maybe even richer. He just bought a large old abandoned theater like it was nothing! He had also renovated and remodeled it as well. Giving his new establishment's name as "Funtom Music Hall". Ciel had related the case to prince Soma's Food Drive. If Ciel had something even better than the 'stars' then he could win the people over the fortuneteller. At least that was what Ciel concluded and to think that it was so simple as well.
The chapter ends with the fortune teller looking into Ciel's window helplessly. To me it feels lie the case was far too easy. I'm pretty sure that the fortune teller won't back down anytime soon, but who knows? We haven't seen much of Undertaker in the previous chapters. All can say is that the suspense is killing me.
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I don't think I've ever made a Naruto Shippuden Review before. Probably because of it's 75% amount of fillers and extras in the series. I waited for this episode and it finally came out. Let's get started.
It continues where the battle was last seen. Naruto and Sasuke in the midst of battling Kaguya. They're now in a snowy and icy dimension and Zetsu suggests that Kaguya separates the two to make it easier for her to kill them. Sasuke was sent to another dimension in an instant, leaving Naruto to face Kaguya alone. The new intro starts and the story resumes.
Obito's determination to die for ninja history
Obito's plan is to retrieve Sasuke from the other dimension. The problem was that he didn't have sufficient chakra to get there and back. Sakura and Naruto's clone offers him their chakra and awaits for Kaguya to open another portal. Naruto continues his battle while thinking of a plan to get Sasuke back. Naruto follows Kaguya into another dimension. Apparently this dimension directly leads to all five different dimensions Kaguya has created. She decided to kill Naruto there and ended his life. Sakura and Obito return from their hiding spot which was in Obito's dimension. They were relieved when they saw that it was only Naruto's clone who got killed and the real Naruto was still back in the icy dimension where Kakashi is.
A short scene of Sakura's determination was shown in the episode. A few flashbacks of her wanting to get stronger. Kaguya then returns to where she and Naruto had last fought and was surprised to see the clones still up and about despite killing the original. We were shown that the original Naruto wasn't the one who entered but his clone who was with Sakura and Obito. The clone offered to stay behind as a distraction while Obito and Sakura hide and thus why Zetsu mistook the clone as the original. While the real Naruto distracts Kaguya, Obito and Sakura went on to finding Sasuke as Obito opens different portals and tries to sense for the Uchiha there.
In the next scene Sasuke is seen to be in a dessert dimension. Meanwhile Zetsu points out that the original Naruto was the only one who had the 'truthseekers' around him. I'm just guessing that those are the orbs that float around him. Obito and Sakura finally found Sasuke but Obito had overused his Mangekyo Sharingan and had to rest for a bit. Luckily Sasuke had gotten in before the portal closed and caught Sakura who's fading in and out of consciousness from lack of chakra. Sasuke explains to Obito how he got there with his new abilities and the episode ends there.
Sasuke catching Sakura before she falls
The story is getting better so far. It's been following the manga this time and hope it actually finishes the series this time rather than stalling around with more fillers. This episode satisfies the Naruto fan's quench for an official episode. The last episode was pretty interesting. It was a filler but I guess it was inspired by Masashi Kishimoto's Naruto Spin-off they gave at the entrance of the Naruto Museum in Japan. I heard it's only given to a few people but contents show that Kakashi's face was revealed. In the last episode, we were shown a full blown picture of Kakashi's face. I think it's classified as a filler but at the same time I don't think so because Kakashi's real face was right there.
Curtain-up on a New Adventure! Arriving at the Phantom Island, Zou!
It's been a while since I've made a One Piece Review... Well it's because the previous episodes were fillers. I guess the animators wanted to stall time and fill in a short gap in Luffy and Bartolomeo's adventure... Anyway's we're an episode late and I'll do the latest episode review next week. Now, on to the show!
One Piece Episode 751 title screen
We're showed a flashback of how Luffy got his Straw Hat. As we all know, Shanks, the pirate Luffy looks up to, saved him from a sea monster and lost his arm in the process. He then gave Luffy his Straw Hat and made a promise to return it to him once they see each other again. Luffy also promises to become the Pirate King while doing so. Our flashback ends as Bartolomeo was actually re-telling the story to his crew. He said that he got this information when he interviewed Luffy. Next he told the story of how Luffy managed to get Zoro, his swordsman and right hand man, in his crew. How they recruited Usopp, Nami, Sanji, Chopper, Robin, Franky and Brook was also recalled in the story by short memorable scenarios of the older One Piece episodes.
You could say that it's an episode of the past. It shows the most touching scenes of the anime and reminds the viewers of how much the Straw Hat Pirates have been to. They aren't indestructible, they're just strong. But even the strong had passed through some phases of their lives to become how strong they are now. It's not really an episode I would recommend to those who are following the One Piece series, but it's a definitely must watch episode for those who are only familiar to the anime. This episode will give them the essence and important of 'nakama' which in other term means family, friends, team mates, and the like.
Eighteen minutes later, Luffy is finally shown on screen as the Barto Club was struck by lightning. Obviously nothing happened to our rubbery protagonist but I can't say that for sure on the Barto Club's side. We're shown a short scene in the Marine Base that they were talking about this pirate who claims to be Whitebeard's son. Although that's not sure yet, for the fact was Whitebeard has no children. We are left with an unclear answer. A week after leaving Dressrosa, the Barto Club advances to Zou island at a calm rate.
We're then shown the island of Zou to be a giant Elephant walking in the ocean of the New World. The name zou was applied literally. In this case zoumeans elephant, and the cities and structures were on the back of the withered elephant. It was revealed that the elephant has been alive for more than a thousand years, walking and walking and never stopping. Trafalgar Law explained to them that there's a tribe on Zou island who hates humans. People who have set foot on the island were never to be heard from again. The episode ends with Luffy's astonished reaction.
Nothing much really happened in the episode, I guess they were wasting time again by putting flashbacks for eighteen minutes. Not really an enjoyable episode for those who still follow One Piece.
It was my first time going to an anime convention. To be honest I'm a little disappointed. I was excited yet nervous at first but I was also quite shy around my two relatives who went with me. I couldn't just act all hyper or fangirl over every little thing. They know me as someone cool, composed and prideful. If I were to suddenly scream at every cosplayer I see and have them take a picture with me, I would die of embarrassment. I could do it in front of my friends, but seriously speaking, these are people who I haven't been with for more than six months. We're not updated with each others lives. We're close but then everything takes time to adjust, so when I adjusted to their atmosphere, it was hard for me to stay composed when in front of anime.
My friends were there. I greeted them and everything was fine. They were the hyper bunch. But they just didn't seem to fit the mood with my relatives and I, it was like we were the ones to adjust. It was frustrating switching to one personality to another. Also, I was only given a thousand pesos. That amount of money is not even enough to satisfy you in the expo. I spent money on food and my entrance fee. And surely it was the food that drained my money. I was only able to get a plain and single notebook. It was at a cheap price (100 pesos is already one of the cheapest prices there) so I just had to get it. Unlike the headphones, I was debating on whether I was getting them or not, believe me it was a tough choice.
It was actually quite funny that I created a list of things that are available and eliminated all the things I couldn't. There were shirts and jackets, keychains and bookmarks, figurines and cosplay items. But every one of them would either have a very disappointing comment from my mother or are just too expensive. First I thought of the keychains, artworks and bookmarks, but then I immediately disregarded that idea because my mother will say that I could just draw that. Then I thought of accessories, headphones or maybe even a bag. I almost got Zoro's earrings but once I saw that you just clip it on, I decided to move on to the next item. I did want new headphones. I use these cheap earphones that I'm tired of. I really do want the headphones but my mom will complain and say that I still have these working earphones.
I thought about getting a shirt or the jacket. I was so excited to get the jacket of either Karasuno or Nekoma but then was highly disappointed when the price was above a thousand pesos. I deflated in defeat as the shirts didn't have any good design on them either. There was this one shirt that says "Notice me Senpai" which is really cool, but then my mom would tell me that I already have too much clothes in my closet. So in the end I didn't buy anything decent. I was rethinking about getting myself the washable hair spray or the colored contact lenses, then again my mother would scold me for buying the colored contacts and I can't use the hair spray either because our school is against it.
To conclude my first anime expo trip. It was boring. Maybe because I couldn't fangirl in front of my relatives. Oh well, I'll just make it up to the next Expo on the 21 of August. Surely by then, the only thing on my mind will be the test results.
I've played volleyball longer than basketball. It was our P.E class so I couldn't refuse. It was the first ball sport I play decent in, so I guess I liked it. I just didn't like how my arms would hurt the next day and how it would affect my handwriting and drawings. I was okay in receiving, bad at blocking and even worse in spiking. the only thing I found enjoyable was serving. The feeling of the ball launching from your hand from the underhand serve. The feeling of accomplishment every time the ball would get into the other side of the net. I loved it all.
After our P.E changed I didn't engage much in volleyball until recently. My friends have been bugging me to watch the anime Haikyuu!! for a while. I decided to watch it, after horribly realizing my mistake of watching Tokyo Ghoul, and I loved it. Now don't get me wrong, Tokyo Ghoul is a very popular anime. The problem for me is the first episode. I didn't feel like I was in the anime. It felt like I was a by stander just watching a crazy lady forcefully feed a poor looking ugly boy. Seriously can't this anime make more sense?! it's only the first two episodes! Moving on...
Karasuno High School Volleyball players
Haikyuu was just the medicine to cure my cringe. It had the one element I was looking for. Passion. Tokyo Ghoul may have some passion sooner or later in the story but what I like about sport anime more is because they have had that passion for a long time. I loved Hinata's way of describing how he spikes. "I want to see the view on the other side" and for that to happen he has to "Get past this wall" which is spiking the ball through the opponent's block. When spiking, they would have to jump higher than usual. this gives them a chance for them to actually view the other side of the court.
Why is Hinata so obsessed in seeing past the wall? We'll never know. This is what amplifies his passion for volleyball. Our ginger haired spiker instantly stole my heart in the first episode. I was simply entranced by the anime and it's story over all. I can't say much now since I have't finished it all yet. But for now, this is all what I could say.
I've thought about it and now, I've reached a conclusion. I like serving the ball to the other court, it's sending a message to the other side. Like "How's things going over there?" "You must get this ball back here" Especially when the opponents hit the ball I've sent, it was very refreshing. Like "Here's the ball" "nice message" or maybe even "we won't lose to this!" it gives me confidence to stand off the court and give an underhand pass to the opponents (because seriously, I can't do overhead serves). Serving is the only half-decent thing I can do in volleyball, and I guess I should take pride for what little things I can do outside my forte.
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Interestingly enough, the background of this song was about "someone tearing apart a former love, using metaphors involving fire." And here I thought that it was just about some deranged girl who seems to be enjoying the end of the world. I guess I haven't been searching father into this, haven't I? I've also been getting into english vocaloids more. I guess there is always something deep in a song.
My theory is that since this is about someone getting over a breakup, the girl is saying that she's tougher to the point that she's 'immune'. Though that's not the case. The girl had already turned crazy saying that she's already a pyromaniac just explains it. She may have the unquenchable thirst to burn her ex to death or is hallucinating. The probability of hallucination could be a fact. as there was a part where she said that the fire was all around her. She was burning the earth bringing the book of Revelations into action. She also said that she met someone as crazy as her so maybe it's another person trying to get over break up? It's very vague.
Another possibility is that she burned his house down and created the illusion that she's burning the entire world just for the heck of it. But how should I know? that's just a theory, a song theory! thanks for reading! (Totally not from The Game Theorists #sarcasm*wink*wink)
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I'm a person who doesn't particularly like teamwork. Sure I'm fine working with other people but if that thing can be done by a single person I'd rather much do it myself. I can't really say that I'm leader material because I haven't experienced being a leader. Ever. In all my school life, I've never been leader of anything. Not that I'm complaining though, all the work is loaded onto the leader so I'd rather not get that extra luggage on my back. There have been several occurrences at school where I find teamwork not unnecessary but rather, gone.
I was fine with group work since second grade. Go pair me up with someone I barely know? Sure. Pair me up with the tardiest person in class? Sure. Group me with a bunch of whores in class? Sure. As long as I'm informed of the activity and what I should do, that's all fine. But if you don't inform me and blame me that I wasn't cooperating, then that's your fault for not informing me on what to do. I'm like a robot. As long as I'm not on, I won't move. As long as orders aren't given, I won't move. I won't do anything unless someone within the group told me to do.
Grade seven. A despicable first year of high school life. I was grouped with XXX, my best friend. XXX and I did everything together. We ate together, we talked about anime everyday, she was by my side when I was sick. She's a real friend. Until that project then we saw each other's true colors... We were supposed to go to XXX's house that Saturday. I didn't know if the plan was cancelled or not. I kept chatting and messaging. No one answered. No one replied. So I thought that the visit to XXX's house was postponed.
Monday came and I immediately went to ask XXX about what happened. "You weren't there. You're the only one who wasn't there." "Why didn't anyone tell me? No one answered if the plan was cancelled" "Well you weren't online" That's complete BS. You can message someone even if they're not online. It will be sent anyway. I wanted to forgive her and try to reason with the teacher. But it seemed that the teacher was also a lost case. Our teacher had no idea what to do. Uhmm, give me a second chance? let our group redo the recording? NOTHING. I FAILED BECAUSE OF THAT AND THEY SAY THAT IT'S MY FAULT FOR NOT BEING ONLINE? COMPLETE BS.
Being friends and my grades are something completely different. If you're my friend that's fine you're cool. I like you and you're awesome to me. But if you're going to mess with my academic grades, I will slit your throat. I won't hesitate to do those things on my own. I will do those things all by myself. That event has traumatized me. My way of thinking is not all for one. One is for one and one only. I would hate it if another event happened like that again. Oh wait, it did.
Eighth Grade. Quite an emotional year. We were baking for Home economics. When two of our group mates, mainly both my best friends in my group decided to mess around with the ingredients. They added two extra teaspoon of sugar to the mixture. I could forgive them for that, I asked them why they did that. And until today I'm still mad at their reply: "So what?" It infuriates me. That kind of reply makes me want to slap the smug looks out of their faces. I hateo it when they think of everything as a joke. My future is not a joke to you. Oh how I wish that this would be the last time this will occur. Wrong again...
Ninth grade. Just quite recently might I add. It was reporting in another subject. It just so happened to be the subject with one of our most strict teachers. "Everyone within the group must know the contents of your XXX". I never said anything that day. What would I say? The questions were in tagalog. We have to report in english. I just wanted to strangle the leader that day. I wasn't informed of what to do. They didn't give me anything to do until the final part of our XXX. Which was only the tables and graphs. I just colored it and traced it. What did I learn from there? NOTHING. AND THEE LEADER WAS PRETENDING THAT I WAS INVISIBLE THAT WHOLE DAY. I GLARED AT HIM EVERY TIME HE ENTERED MY LINE OF SIGHT. HOW UNFEELING COULD HE GET?
I've lost all hope for humanity. For teamwork. For information. I've given up, just like that. If there's more to come like this, I'd rather do all the work myself. at least I would have a grade of my own and won't hinder the entire group.
