Vocaloid Song Review #4

ECHO (Oliver's Cover)

Lyrics

The clock stopped ticking forever ago.

How long have I been up?

I don't know.

I can't get a grip, but I can't let go 

There wasn't anything to hold on to though.

Why can't I see? 

Why can't I see?

All the colors that you see?

Please, can I be, 

Please can I be,

Colorful and free?

What the hell's going on?! 

Can someone tell me please? 

Why I'm switching faster than the channels on TV?

I'm black, then I'm white,

No! 

Something isn't right! 

My enemy's invisible, I don't know how to fight!

The trembling fear is more than I can take,

When I'm up against 

The echo in the mirror!

Echo!

I'm gonna burn my house down into an ugly black.

I'm gonna run away now and never look back.

I'm gonna burn my house down into an ugly black.

I'm gonna run away now and never look back.

I'm gonna burn my house down into an ugly black.

I'm gonna run away now and never look back.

I'm gonna burn my house down into an ugly black.

I'm gonna run away now and never look back.

I'm gonna burn my house down,

And never look back.

And never look back.

And never look back!

What the hell's going on?! 

Can someone tell me please? 

Why I'm switching faster than the channels on TV?

I'm black, then I'm white,

No! 

Something isn't right! 

My enemy's invisible, I don't know how to fight!

What the hell's going on?! 

Can someone tell me please? 

Why I'm switching faster than the channels on TV?

I'm black, then I'm white,

No! 

Something isn't right! 

My enemy's invisible, I don't know how to fight!

The trembling fear is more than I can take,

When I'm up against 

The echo in the mirror!

The trembling fear is more than I can take,

When I'm up against 

The echo in the mirror!

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To start off, the song has a lot of instrumentals in it, also the lyrics are quite repetitive so this'll be a challenge to explain. Though I do find the music very catchy. The music was originally sung by Gumi, although I'll be using Oliver's version so that the song will sound more natural. Gumi's English accent disturbs me a bit. Another thing to keep in mind is that I'm suffering from another headache currently so please bear with any misspellings or grammar. I've been planning to talk about this song for a while now. I just didn't know how to explain it well enough for anyone to understand without watching the video, anyways here you go!

This song can be on an artist's point of view. It can mean that he's turn color blind or had damaged his eyes to the point wherein he can only see black and white. The visuals don't really support this idea because of the tv head and the six arms positioned similar that to Buddhism or something like that. Since he couldn't see well the 'echo' in the mirror can be referring to his reflection. Since the meaning of the words echo is a repetition or imitation.  It can be the repeating image of himself in the miror.

Another theory is that while watching tv, that person suffers from seizure. The warning at the beginning of the song was that viewer discretion is advised. because the video itself can trigger a seizure or epilepsy. It said that he turns black and white (most presumably he lost and regained consciousness) and switches faster than the tv. At the first part of the song, we can say that he woke up from the previous seizure and has no recollections of what happened before. Not long after more seizures come up and only one thing was on his mind "What's going on?!" he must have become delusional at the part where he repeats the line "I'm gonna burn my house down into an ugly black. I'm gonna run away now and never look back. I'm gonna burn my house down into an ugly black. I'm gonna run away now and never look back."  he must've thought that it was something in his house (or his entire house) triggering the seizures. Being sick of those seizures he probably thought he probably thought that the fastest way would be burning it down.

His invisible enemy would probably mean his illness. If it's this case, then the video supports the idea as well. I've found the exact seizure for this case: "Myoclonic seizures involve spasms of muscles in either a few areas or all over.[29] Absence seizures can be subtle with only a slight turn of the head or eye blinking.[22] The person does not fall over and returns to normal right after it ends.[22] Atonic seizures involve the loss of muscle activity for greater than one second.[25]This typically occurs on both sides of the body.[25]" (more information at: Wikipedia) this can mean that his muscles are failing him. He's then soon plagued with fear, unknowing when the next 'attack' will happen.

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More meanings of echo here

lyrics found here

Rules and Regulations

Why do younger generation tend to rebel against their parents?

These days I've been seeing kids who are younger than me fight against their parents. It shocks me that they've resorted to physical means. Sometimes they do engage in a physical fight or simply run away from home. Most kids do run away from home after punishment or simple 'discipline' from the parents. This week I have also been informed that there will be additional rules to the house and every time we break these rules, there will be punishment. Let the headache begin.

I have come up with a conclusion to why kids run away from home. The parents don't understand what they're feeling. Most kids are very selfish, and only think for themselves and not for other people. That's why they don't understand why their parents are punishing them, or how their parents feel when punishing them. Parents on the other hand, don't think the same way their kids do. They do what they thin is right for the sake of their child's discipline, responsibility and health development. But sometimes in a child's point of view, the parents are pushing them too far to the wall.

Growing teenagers also have a hard time understanding their parents. Teens around my age would feel very moody and with a bossy or naggy parent around, things could get worse. They want their parents to know what they feel. The problem is that they don't rely on delivering that message verbally. They want their parents to be observant of their behavior and changes in actions and certain habits. For example, a sixteen year old girl came home from a stressful day at school. She forgot her project in science at home and didn't review for a quiz that day. If that girl comes home to find her parents arguing, she'll most likely go into her room and cry. If that girl comes to find her parents immediately bossing her around to do the chores, she'll feel restless and most probably snap at someone since she's in a bad mood. If she comes home to find her parents more interested about her grades or performance in school, she'll feel neglected, stressed and used as a tool, especially if her parents own a big company or has high expectations from her.

Children who are twelve and below will tend to act the same way. But most children won't act the same way when it comes to punishments. Spoiled children will throw a tantrum if they don't get what they want. Quiet children will most likely cry but nothing too rowdy. Sporty/ Energetic children will get mad and would throw anger issues. Any reactions depending on the child's personality will result in another output. Children who run away are most likely those who are sad inside. Whether they're being bullied at school, has family problems or even just plain misunderstood are most likely the type of children who would run away. Kids run away from their problems, from reality, from anything they find unpleasant. They want to live in a paradise, live a happily ever after.

Now we all know the pain and hardships there are in life. And these people, teens and kids, are just passing through, what they think is, the hardest part of their life. The adults should know this and guide their children accordingly. Most of the time there's a misunderstanding within the family which can cause a child to rebel, be forever traumatized or change his entire point of view of humanity. Children are easier to mold than teenagers. Teens have their personality developed well. They just need to be understood. What teens and kids these days don't know what their parents have gone through to make them discipline like that. Everyone has a story to tell and secrets to keep. Their stories are the things that have made the this way so far and if we don't share it with one another, no one will understand each other.

To conclude here's a song from vocaloid featuring: 'Child Abuse' sung by: Miku Hatsune the title is: "Useless Child"

Living In A World So Cold

I can't live anymore because I'm already dead inside

"I want to die early" I said "What kind of languages do you get from your father?!" she said. I've been saying that over and over in my head since the past few weeks. I want to die. I can't continue living. After all I've died a long time ago as well. No one believes me. No one acknowledges the things I say. It's hard living like you're just some puppet of some mortal creatures. I want to die so that my soul can finally be at peace with the Lord. I can't continue this path of pain and suffering.

Everyday feels like a dream. A dream wherein I'll wake up and find myself in paradise once more. When my father still loved my mother. I want to believe that this is all a bad dream I'm living in. But it's not. The pain and hardship is real. This pain in my chest is real. The noises in my head is real. My mistakes are real. I just want to get away from it all. That's why I run away. I run away from all the pain that's been buried in my chest. The only distraction from this reality is fiction.

Sometimes I really hate reality, so I turn my back on it. I drown myself in my own computerized pleasures and imagination. At least I could escape reality just for a bit. But I wonder, If I could ever laugh as freely as I always imagined. My depiction of 'laugh as freely' is not laughing because of a silly joke or that your friend did something stupid. I want to laugh because I'm free. Free from all the troubles, free from all the stress and negativity. I want to laugh freely as I always imagined. But I could never laugh for such a reason as that.

In reality, a moment of silence is a moment of truth. You tend to think and reflect about life. The more that I think of it now. I just want to die early. It doesn't matter if I fulfill my dreams, after all I'm only worth "Two pesos". Even potato chips are much more expensive than me. Am I only worth of two pesos load? I think I'm even lesser than that. A friend of mine said this two years ago: "Everyone can't live without a hug at least once a day." So I replied to him "Then how am I still living? Human contact is unnecessary for their daily routine." he wanted to prove me wrong but guess what happened to him now? He's turned his back on his own word.

It's mind shattering that no one believes you. They don't believe that you feel this headache because I'm just 'too young'. They don't believe about me being too concerned about my own grades that I get sick about it. No one believes that I suffer from mild depression. No one believes that I'm broken inside. No one believes that I'm just a shell with no soul. I have to admit those who I consider as 'friends' are actually just people who are really kind to me. Helping me along the way, but what can I do for them? they've done so much for me and I can't do anything for them. I'm just useless.

That's why I'm featuring this song: World So Cold by the Canadian rock band: Three Days Grace

No one believes me.

Vocaloid Song Review #3

The Tattler's Tall Tale

Lyrics:

Far away, and long ago

There was a land, a nice plateau

There was a town, and next to it

Lived a young man who would not quit!

You see, this man was tall and fair.

He spoke and acted without care.

And with his words and with his charm,

The whole town believed without alarm.

The stories that he weaved

Would soon cause the town to grieve

He roamed the streets from dusk ‘til dawn,

Without a care, without a yawn.

He walked into a bar and smiled,

He said he’d stay a little while

But soon, it all just went awry,

When, from afar, he heard a cry!

“I bet you it’s that blue-haired vixen!

You know she isn’t free of sin?”

“I saw her working down the block,

Where, on her knees, she begged for xxx!”

“Or maybe it’s your husband Ann?

I heard he isn’t half a man.

With legs spread wide from nine to five,

I wonder how you’re still alive!”

And so, he went off tattling,

From winter snow to sunny spring.

But soon, it all went straight downhill,

For now, he seeks another thrill!

But soon, one day, his time will come,

When justice seeks and finds his wrongs.

And he will learn to hold his tongue,

By the end of this song!

There once was a boy with bright, blonde hair,

Who sought a thrill without a care

He roamed the streets from dusk to dawn

For stories that he had foregone!

You see, this boy was young in mind,

And even though they thought him blind,

Just from his words and with his charm,

The town, they praised without alarm.

The stories that he weaved,

Would soon cause the town to grieve.

He saw the truth beneath the lie,

He saw it with his one good eye!

He walked into a bar and smiled,

He said he’d stay a little while

But soon, it all just went awry,

When tattler came in with a cry!

“So she did the unspeakable?”

“She drowned them like in the fables!”

“He did not taste the precious meat.”

“He used the cleavers, cut her feet!”

“A portrait hid a tiny child,

And we were sad a little while.”

“The colors mixed without a trace.

I wonder how all your lies taste!”

And so, he went off mockingly

As tattler hung his head and fled,

But soon, it all will be set straight

For everyone will face their fate.

But soon, one day, his time will come

When justice seeks and finds his wrongs,

And he will learn to hold his tongue

By the end of this song!

Far away, and long ago

There was a land, a nice plateau

There was a town, and next to it

Lived a young man who would not quit!

You see, these two, they hit a snare,

And neither man was well aware,

That with their words and with their charm,

The town began their great alarm!

The stories that they spoke and weaved,

Had finally caused the town to grieve.

And fed up with their foolish lies,

They boiled their blood and gouged their eyes.

The truth, here, kids, it’s all a lie

The lie is that the truth was dry

So never cause people to cry

With fibs or tales of any kind

And so, the town lived happily,

As both tattlers, they hung with glee.

And truth they hid behind their backs,

For it was better than the facts.

And soon, one day, their time will come,

When justice seeks and fixes wrongs

And the town lived forever strong

So it is the end of this song!

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This song is very direct. The moral lesson of the story: Do not lie. Lying causes a huge mental impact on the person you're lying to. Lying only gives you less trust from people. I wonder why people lie. Do they lie because they're hiding something? Then why do they hide those things? is it because they've done bad? Can't people just say the loud and honest truth rather than lying?

I've once heard that if you're lying, you're not only lying to them but to yourself. Is it because you cannot accept the fact yourself that you did something wrong? Then what are you denying? What do you have to hide to tell such far fetched tales? Lies can easily be observed from every person. The way they act, speak, eat and even from their daily routines. In the song, both the tattlers were hung for their 'crimes'. And I do agree with that method

Those who have lied cause lies to be believed in. In other words: Liars go to hell. You are destroying and 'stealing' their mentality. You are mentally 'killing' them. The song shows just what will happen to those liars. They will have to pay the price, at the cost of their own life. Think before you speak. Now here's the question: Are you going to live your life as a lie?

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Lyrics from: The Tattler's Tall Tale

Little Sister

A small flower so beautiful
yet cannot bear anything fruitful
So she picked from another
and went on farther

Seeing the fruit so deliciously ripe,
she decided to give it a tiny little bite.
But woe is she!
the fruit was actually a he.

And so she threw it away
and went on astray
Next she saw a beautiful doll
she saw no one, no one at all!

So she took the doll away
and went on her way
but the doll stank of filthy lies
her mouth was then full of cries.

She threw the doll away
and noted that it was the day
the day that she'd find
something to make her blind.

Gong through every obstacle she was energized
she never thought of anything unorganized
then came upon the loveliest earrings
they would shine in the dark, no kidding!

After wearing the sweetest jewelry
She realized that it was filled with cruelty
Their sweet beckoning words
flew out fast just like birds

She ripped it out in haste
but seeing that it was such a waste
she threw it in the river
not being much of a deliverer

Her time was coming, the end is near
though death was not something she would fear
yet she still doesn't have it
the thing that won't make her quit.

You know what she wants
something that's found in restaurants
yes, it's her other half
the one that will give her a laugh

There once was a girl who searched far and wide
the people around her would always hide
they do not know what she desire
for everything they gave would always backfire

They couldn't win
for she wanted a twin.

????????????????

Sometimes the world is darker from what the shade we see it in

I wonder if I'm insane at times. My emotions vary. Right now, I want to rip someone's head off, put it on a stick, display it outside, douse it with gasoline and burn it while that person's mother is watching, then do the same to her afterwards. sometimes i tHink i nEed heLP. my entire life is either a scrambled up painting or a fried up MashEd up potato.

Today my mom said that she wasted two pesos on me. So I'm only worth two pesos now? KILLing sounds fun at the MomEnt. school's bee nonstop, I have to check up on my dad every Saturday load is killing me when will it stop? can i die now? can i sleep for eternity now?can everythng end just like that?WHYWONT ANYONEANSWERME WHY??????

Stress. The one thing my parents wont ever believe that I have. Heh who am I to complain though? Others have it tougher than me, I wonder how they can survive. NO ONE CARES, YOU HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF ANYWAY. The noise in my head. It hurts. What can anyone do though? they won't believe me anyway. I TOLD HER I NEED TO GO TO A PSYCHIATRIST. I TOLD HER. Now the pain's just back. You wanna know more of what's inside my noisy head?

just go through the same hell I do everyday.Oh wait you can't. You're not me. You're not invited here. Get out. Never come back ad cease to exist because I'm through. I'm done. I really wish that I would be the one going. 

Basketball (feat. Kuroko no Basuke)

Where It All Started...

Kuroko no Basuke (Kuroko's Basketball)

Kuroko no Basuke, also known as The Basketball Which Kuroko Plays, is one of the first (and only) sport anime that I've watched. At first, my impression of them was just a bunch of rainbow characters who knows how to shoot a ball into a hoop. Once I began watching it during Summer vacation of 2015, this anime completely turned my point of view of basketball upside down.

I used to think that Basketball is just some ridiculous sport that needs a lot of players on court to shoot the ball into the hoop. In a sense, it is what I just described it. Now my thoughts of basketball is completely different from then. You can say that I saw the excitement and passion of the sport in this anime. I never thought that in my life would I ever appreciate basketball. Sure I've heard this anime around, people say it's good and all but I don't see myself as a sports person. First of all, I was confined at home, not allowed to even step down from the stairs of my grandmother's house. I grew up as an introvert.

Second, I was no longer permitted to play any rough sports by the time I got my glasses (which was grade 2). I never appreciated sports then. Looking back, I was never really interested in Volleyball or Basketball (a little bit on badminton though) or any sports that require too much physical attention. You could say I was so negative about sports. All until I watched this anime. Kuroko no Basuke revolves around Kuroko Tetsuya. I grew more and more interested as each personality of every character. It was the story line and the personality that dragged me into this anime. Kuroko is only known to be a 'shadow'. Only supporting stronger players.

Generation of Miracles during their Middle School Years

There was this known 'Generation of Miracles' in Japan that has said to be the best generation of athletes. The story shows us the famed 'Generation of Miracles' as basketball players. Akashi Seijuuro, known to be the captain and point guard. He's shown to be strict but understanding to his fellow team mates. Murasakibara Atsushi, standing at 6''1 in middle school, he's known to be the best center there is. Atsushi has a lazy and uncaring personality, almost like a child with major sweet tooth. Midorima Shintaro, shooting guard and horoscope maniac. Shintaro has a strange habit of taping his fingers and completely devotes himself in daily horoscopes. Aomine Daiki, he's best at almost any position but his forte is being a power forward. He's also known as the ace of Teiko middle school basketball team. Aomine is the passionate person within the bunch. He loves basketball so much that he's gotten too good at it with his 'street-style'. Kise Ryouta, small forward and a very goofy guy. He becomes a model on his first year of high school.

Last but not least, Kuroko Tetsuya. Known as Aomine's 'shadow' in the anime. The real story starts when the team slowly changes where everyone's mindset was that victory was everything. Because of that, everyone slowly began changing for the worse. Kuroko couldn't do anything but watch everyone's passion of basketball vanish. In their first year of high school, Kuroko wants to prove to his former team members that winning isn't always about everything. He succeeds in the final season and wins the Winter Cup league. This anime dragged me through thick and thin, I was completely inspired and was even motivated to play basketball, a sport that I never imagined that I would play.

In the end I will always be like a 'shadow'. No matter how hard I try or want to improve, my eyesight will only be a hindrance to the sport I became passionate about. To conclude, I came to appreciate the sport so much that I decided to try it a bit myself. I don't intend to join in any major games or play with others. In fact, I prefer to play alone or with my close friends. My close friends have been trying to get to to play sports and I guess I finally gave in. I don't mind though, I just want to try the things that I've been missing out my entire life.

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first picture found at: The Basketball Which Kuroko Plays
second picture: Kuroko's Basketball
more information at: Kuroko no Basuke

Fanfiction Recommendations #2

Death Can't Have Her

Written by: KuraChan-ya

A wanderer, a student, a marine, a traveler, a pirate. These are the titles Shiki had once become. She doesn't care what she is, as long as her friend is safe, even if she has to become the villain of the story or die trying. But what happens when she's stuck with the Surgeon of Death and his crew?

SENPAI NOTICED ME!!! THIS IS THE GREATEST MOMENT OF MY LIIIIIFFFEEE!!! *ehem* excuse me for my fan-girling. It just so happened that one of the recent chapters of this story was dedicated to me! I never thought an author would acknowledge a random reader like me! The chapter that was dedicated to me can be found here. Moving on...

The story revolves around our stoic heroine, Shiki. It starts of interestingly as our protagonist being a marine. This book is one of the book where Character development is slow. I really appreciate that the character's personality doesn't change much or at all. Unlike most books I read about where the main character acts all high and mighty but cant do anything around their crush and ends up getting real shy. Shiki on the other hand doesn't act very girlish or normal. She has a very unique character that can't be easily swayed. Her attitude only differs when she's around her friend Reika. Towards other people, she's cold and blunt.

She somewhat has an attitude of a child too. When she sees something cute, or something she likes, she would immediately act kinder and more compassionate. Her first encounter with Bepo proves this where she offers Bepo free fish from the bar. The story gets only more interesting while we're learning about Shiki's habits as a Vice Admiral. She only captures pirates they're assigned to. If they encounter a different pirate on their way to or back, she'd always command her crew to ignore them. This was revealed when they encountered the White beard pirates on their way back to marine base.

The crew had mistaken Shiki's sleep talk as an order to attack. Once Shiki woke up from the ruckus and threatened her crew mates that she'll sink the ship if they don't retreat. She then apologized to the pirates and went on their way. Later during Ace's execution, Shiki betrays the marines and saves Ace because she said "They're nice pirates." remembering their encounter where one of the pirate mockingly said that they're "Saving people and helping the sick". It would seem that Shiki takes everything too literally. She then returns Ace to Luffy and escaped the war once Reika arrived.

The real story starts where she's resting on an island, she meets Trafalgar Law for the second time. Law then kidnaps Shiki and Shiki later on joining the crew because her friend allowed her to. Slowly we see Law grow feelings for Shiki. Mysteriously Shiki and Reika seem to be chasing after a certain man for unknown reasons. Reika gets furious every time they learn that he's on the same island as they are. Shiki doesn't show much anger towards the man unlike Reika. Since the story is still ongoing, I can't really say much about it.

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picture from: Book Cover

read and support the story: Death Can't Have Her

Resident Evil 6 (PS4) review

Resident Evil 6 intro

This is the first and only horror game that I will ever play. I have a weak heart and can't play any suspense or anything worse than this game. I was introduced to this game a way long back but I never even dared to play it. This year just for laughs and giggles I decided to play the game my dad has been playing before I was even born. I was actually encouraged to play when I found out that at ththere's a second player (since most Resident Evil games didn't have a second player).

The game play has changed a lot from the last. You can now have a second player join the game, you cannot directly eat the herb unlike before, more guns, more playable characters, more action reflex moves, and more accurate weapons reloading. The story depends on who you're using. If you're using Leon, your partner is Helena. If you're using Jake (the guy on the far left of the picture) your partner is Sherry. If you're Chris your partner is Piers (the guy in the middle). If you're Ada, and you're playing with a second player, you have an agent as your partner.

Playing Leon's campaign probably the best to get you warmed up for the game. In Leon's campaign your primary opponent is Simmons, the CEO of a company. It reveals that Simmons actually allowed the virus to spread throughout the world. In Chris's campaign however, your opponent will be Ada Wong. Ada is shown to be working with Simmons but soon betrays him and spreading the virus around the world with ease. As Jake, you won't have any primary opponents you're after, but it mostly shows the two running away from danger as Jake needs to be protected since he is the antivirus. Then everything takes a turn in Ada's solo campaign. It shows that Ada has a doppelganger. No one knows of the fake Ada's existence but Ada herself. Carla, the fake Ada, betrays Simmons and cause more havoc spreading the virus from one country to another.

I love Jake and Chris's campaign. Jake's story slowly turns a little romantic. He and Sherry were hinted to be together at the end of the game. Despite the two going off to different paths, they're bound to meet up again someday. On Chris's side, I'm touched on how Piers Nivans sacrificed himself to save his captain. The graphics was the best among the rest of the game. The new HD platform installed on the PS4 (and not to mention our tv too) gave the the best (gruesome) experience there is to Resident Evil 6. I can't wait for 7 to come out. The next game would probably be about Jake Muller, as it is seen on every ending of everyone's campaign a cut scene of Jake returning to his mercenary life.

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the least I could do at home is post a blog, despite my aching head :/
picture from: Resident Evil 6
for more information visit: Wikipedia

Utauloid Song Review #1 (More Like Vocaloid vs. Utauloid)

End of Rain (Yamine Renri)

I can't really say much about this song since I haven't really read much about it's translation but I can say that the original was sung by Hatsune Miku which makes this a vocaloid song. However, I'll be using Yamine Renri's version because this was the first video that I've hear her voice. It wasn't a coincidence that I've found this, no. I found out about Yamine Renri on a top 5 vocaloid and Utauloid list on Youtube. I was curious so I had to check it up. Despite being 5th on the list that I've watched, she has the most humanly voice compared to other Utauloids.

I've also asked my parents about this and they were stunned that it was computer regenerated. "It didn't even sound like a robot!" they said. I saw that there was a lot of potential on those who made and edited these Utauloids. The reason why they aren't popular is because they're out shined by vocaloids. Vocaloid has started the "Electronic music" trend. Utauloids followed soon after, they're advantage is that their program is free. You'd have to pay for Vocaloid voice banks and it's program.

So why are Utauloids over looked if they're almost the same with Vocaloids? The first Utaus were pretty robotic. So much that it's hard to understand what they're saying. Vocaloids on the other hand may sound robotic, but at least people could understand what they're saying. Vocaloids and Utauloids have evolved until now. Vocaloid 4 being the recent version, for Utauloids... Well you can find videos with good quality like the one above. Another improvement is that both Vocaloid and Utauloid has voice banks in different languages. It first expanded to Korean (SeeU being the first) then soon after english voice banks have been made (Oliver is the first vocaloid to be recorded by a young boy).

To conclude there isn't much of a difference, just pricing. It requires both skill and time to make a song with Utauloid and Vocaloid , depending on whose voice bank you're using. I do personally have my own Utauloid and my own voice bank with my voice, but I still have to improve it's quality and such. In any cases, whether you're an avid fan of vocaloid or electronic music, you wont be bothered by Utauloids much depending on who you're listening to.

Vocaloid Song Review #2

Paradichlorobenzene (Destructive-Type Brainwashing Song)

English Translation:

Why do I sing? Paradichlorobenzene

I sing without meaning or understanding Paradichlorobenzene

I ran off seeking answers Paradichlorobenzene

But when I got there none were waiting

C'mon, let's sing, let's dance Paradichlorobenzene

C'mon, let's scream, let's shout Paradichlorobenzene

Dogs, cats, cows, pigs, everyone Paradichlorobenzene

C'mon, let's go mad, let's go to sleep till we rot away, yeah

I hate these rules, I won't be tied down

That's why I ran and forgot about everything

I hate being told what to do, I want to be a little bad

Slipping out at night to roam the city streets

What do I live for? I asked a stray

But the cat's only answer was a glare

I gulped down coffee I couldn't stomach, looked up at the cloudy sky

What can I do in the state I'm in? Even that, I just don't know

That's why I sing out Paradichlorobenzene

Don't know what it means, but still I scream Paradichlorobenzene

Are you satisfied now? Paradichlorobenzene

Breaking rules, breaking laws--What would that change about you?

I just need an outlet, don't care who Paradichlorobenzene

Punish the wicked in the name of justice Paradichlorobenzene

Let off steam behind a shield of justice Paradichlorobenzene

Everyone stops, we don't see... How stupid can you get?

Ah, does this song mean anything? These lyrics mean nothing

Is this song guilty? These lyrics are innocent

Does Benzene mean anything? Benzene means nothing

Is Benzene guilty? This song means... Benzene

Then I realize it's all hypocrisy in the end

What's the point of living? The stray cat drowned

I tossed the empty coffee cup and looked at the darkened sky

What am I doing with myself? Even that, I just don't know

I don't know anything anymore

Then you laugh at me Paradichlorobenzene

Then I knock you down Paradichlorobenzene

I'm right, you're wrong Paradichlorobenzene

Surrounded by the void, vanishing until I'm gone

C'mon, let's sing, let's dance Paradichlorobenzene

C'mon, let's laugh, let's be jealous Paradichlorobenzene

You, me, everything Paradichlorobenzene

C'mon, let's go mad, let's go to sleep till we rot away, yeah

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Another depressing song I know. Here's a few facts before we get started. At first Owata-P said that there was no meaning behind the song. Later on he revealed that the song was based after the chemical compound C6H4Cl2. A "reply" song was released a year after called "Antichlorobenzene" which was sung by Kagamine Rin. So our first question is: What is benzene?

Benzene is an important organic chemical compound with the chemical formula C6H6. The benzene molecule is composed of 6 carbon atoms joined in a ring with 1 hydrogen atom attached to each. Because it contains only carbon and hydrogen atoms, benzene is classed as a hydrocarbon. (Information found at Wikipedia) So basically what Len is describing is this:

Benzene Illustration

We do see a similar illustration like this in the song and as well as it's chemical compound. But enough with that science stuff let's move on to the lyrics. There has been flashing images of what seemed to be words let's try to pause and see what these words say. At the beginning of the song, specifically at 0:23) this is what's written:

JUSTICE

because of unspeakable loneliness it's merely self-satisfaction.

I am like a cowardly little dog constantly barking.

In order to protect my little pride, I only looked at my own justice.

I assumed everyone around me was evil-, and even to this day, I still continue to bark.

I can relate to this especially since I'm in my teenage years. A person like me wants to think that everyone is wrong when that's not the case. I've come to realize that only I  was wrong. I wanted to blame someone for my actions when I myself do almost the same thing they're doing. It's sad isn't it? That even "justice" it'self can't be correct. the saying "Just because they're wrong doesn't make you right." really struck me. Sometimes people can't see why others do bad things. A teacher of mine once said that if you do something bad but for a good purpose then it doesn't make you good either. I then thought back to the anime Naruto. Since Itachi killed his clan (other than it's an order) for the sake of his village (if you don't know why, his clan had planned a coup de etat) then does that make him a bad person? Until this day I am greatly confused by this.

DISEASE

As if you were controlled by something lead by the emotions in you.

I understand my condition and I'm irritated by it, but even then I still depend on it.

That only makes it spread and would eventually grab hold of my consciousness.

I've read in the first part of the song "Benzene" that this chemical, when exposed to, can cause cancer. I'm guessing that this was the 'disease' they're talking about. Now I'm not too familiar about cancer since I have not experienced it personally. Though I have witnessed my mother suffer from this disease back when I was only around eight or nine years old. I remember her bedridden in a separate room with Iv's stuck all around her arm at home. I remember how much I wanted her to get better without the knowledge that the disease she caught was deadly. I remember how I drew pictures of us together after she's finally healthy again and would stick it up on the wall beside her so that she could look at it every day. I was so young back then, I didn't know the dangers of this world. I just had a dreaded feeling that time that I knew my mom didn't catch a simple "fever" that my dad kept telling me. I knew that it was much worse and much more life-threatening. I almost cried every time I saw the pack of blood standing by my mother's bedside. For once I actually feared for someone else's life.

DEPENDENCY

I can no longer live without it.

Even if I understand my condition I go against it.

I want other people to accept my existence, to realize my existence.

I envy those who have the means to do this.

I don't hate them.

I just want them to understand me.

It's true that I can no longer live without dependency. It's pretty obvious since I'm only in my teens but I don't think that I could ever live a life without depending on someone. All throughout my life I've depended on my parents since they were the source of my food, clothing, education and such. They were my only source of love. Way back when I was around 4 years old, I remember crying each time my mother would leave me in school. In my tiny little brain I had thought that she always dropped me at an orphanage and didn't want me anymore. I thought that I would become parent-less like the rest of the children with me. I couldn't comprehend the meaning of school that time. So I had to repeat Kindergarten the next year. I'm the oldest in the class and I don't mind at all, still at the back of my mind I still have this feeling that my mom will give up on me and my brothers soon.

What am I fighting against?

I just take a person I don't know, call him evil, and fight against him.

Jealousy.

At around 1:09 we see these words in the video. Almost as If it's his conclusion of the statements earlier in the intro. But there's more to come. At the second verse we see as Len is singing the words Rules, Laws and Regulations were spinning in the background. This can be related the the verse he was singing where he doesn't like being tied down, would run away from home and would want to try being the 'bad guy' this time. This can happen to most teenagers where they'll g against the many rules and try to be the villain for once. In other words, they're sick of all the rules and rebel against they're parents.

Without even realizing it's the same thing.

Was shown for a split second in 1:45. This statement can mean a lot of things. Let's relate it to the fact that he ran away from home. Maybe h thought that running away from home is all the same thing. Everywhere he goes there'll always be rules to maintain peace and order. There was a time in the second verse where he mentioned that he doesn't like being ordered around. Maybe everywhere he goes he still feels like a helpless dog whose all bark but no bite? Who knows...

I won't accept this.

Everybody else who succeeded besides me are evil.

I'll always look for a weakness.

Now this is some serious pride disorder(?). I had this once when I was still young and innocent. I had always thought that the world was mine and I had the cuteness that could sway anyone off their feet and make them give me whatever I wanted (except for my parent who barely spoiled me). I thought that I was on top of the world stepping on everyone else. While growing up, that wasn't the case. I had a classmate back in kindergarten. He suffered from ADHD but somehow managed to grasp the teachers all in his tiny little hands. Everyone adored him. I was only put second. I couldn't beat him at anything, but he would always be the winner. The star. Even my mother adored him. And during those stages of my childhood I wanted everyone's attention to myself. I instantly grew jealous of him. He was my first victim who I killed in my own little world. Before I knew it I've gown into a monster.

Insignificance

Despair

Hate

Delusion

Indiscriminate

Everything done is for my self-satisfaction.

That's why even today...

These words have shown themselves within the later part of the video. And these were all I felt during my early stages of my pubescent years. Just like these word's description, these were all that I was that time. I was Grade 3 when I wanted to live on my own and actually grow independent, it was also my first year of growing distant towards my family. That all changed until grade 5 and 6 where I concluded that I would use my parents for my everyday needs. They were only tools sent by God for me, so why not take advantage of them? Once I had showed them my growing results in my academics they showered me with gifts. As long as I could maintain my reputation and status at school, then their purpose wouldn't be wasted. No one would know of the person I am.

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English Translation at: Paradichlorobenzene

Video found at: Paradichlorobenzene (Video)

Oliver's english version: Paradichlorobenzene (English Dubbed)

Image found at: Benzene

Fanfiction Recommendations #1

Akatsuki Babysitters? Rewrite

Written by: writer168

                     Four Year old Sakura and the Akatsuki.

 This was one of the first few books that I've read on Wattpad. Yes, it may be a fanfiction but do not underestimate the author's writing abilities. I've read a lot of fanfictions that... weren't that decent but this one is truly a masterpiece. I've read a few other stories from writer168 and I've got two more of his books in my awesome list.

We all know that Sakura is the weak and helpless girl of team 7 but in this book, she's Nagato and Konan's child. The story takes place wherein her father, the leader of the notorious criminal organization, decides to place her within the group he leads. His intention was so that all the members would change in a better way and he believes that his daughter can change them. Soon enough Nagato placed a new rule within their base. Who ever member is left in the base, they have the responsibility to take care of Sakura.

Not long after, Sakura has warmed up all of these criminal's hearts with her kind and selfless personality. The story has it's humors here and there but it's main plot has a tragic twist. Within the chapters it will hint that Sakura has some sort of decease. It then reveals that she suffers from Acute Myelogenous Leukemia. It's a decease where her bone marrow produces abnormal myeloblasts, a type of white blood cell. It can be treated with chemotherapy but since this time takes place within the ninja eras, chemotherapy is still in development. In other words, she's dying.

This fact was only revealed within the second to the last chapter: "Of Butterflies and Flowers" where her mother reveals the secret to the other Akatsuki members. This had devastated them. Their one and only light within the darkness of their world is slowly fading. Sakura never asked for anything in return, she knew that she was dying from the start and she lived the life she wanted. She died with no regrets and had a smile on her face the next morning. It broke my heart that Sakura's last wish was never fulfilled.

She had wished to see the sunrise one last time, but died painlessly in her sleep instead. To be honest I cried at this story, it just pulls you into the book itself as if you're there with the characters which makes this a great book. I had no problems or complains from it's ending. The author added an epilogue where it shows that the Akatsuki members had changed drastically. Like how Sasori became patient and how Deidara cut his own hair (in a chapter Sakura pleaded if she could cut his hair one day).

To conclude I love this story. How it's written, how the characters developed and so on ans so forth. If you want to give it a read you can search it up on Wattpad by it's title or it's author. This book had made me rethink that maybe not all bad people are wrong. Just because they're wrong doesn't make you right, there's always a story behind everyone's mask.

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Read the book here: Akatsuki Babysitters? Rewrite
Cover picture from: Book Cover

Vocaloid Song Review #1

Rolling Girl (Sung by: Miku Hatsune)(Utauloid Version by:kyaami)

English Translation:

For lonely girls, it's always the same, dreaming dreams that don't come true

And churning, churning through the clamor in their heads

A lonely girl mutters "I'm fine", have words failed her?

A failure, a failure.

Obsessing over her mistakes makes everything spin again!

One more time, one more time

"I'll roll along again today"

The girl said, the girl said

Breathing life into the words!

"How about now?"

"Not yet, we still can't see what's ahead. Hold your breath, now."

This is how it ends for a Rolling Girl, unable to reach the colors on the other side

The overlapping voices, they blend together, blend together

She mutters, "I'm fine.", but the words fail her

Not caring how it ends

An upward climb that invites mistakes

One more time, one more time

Please, get me rolling

The girl said, the girl said

With her intense silence!

"How about now?"

"Just a little more, we should see something soon. Hold your breath, now."

One more time, one more time

"I'll roll along again today"

The girl said, the girl said

Breathing laughter into the words!

"How about now? OK, you can look. You must be exhausted too, right?"

Stop breathing, now.

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I love this song. Not only have I related to it but it describes my entire life. There is no official meaning behind the lyrics so fans are able to come up with their own theories and such. I decided to place Mawarine Shuu's version too. Despite being a Utauloid his voice is pretty smooth.

The theme of the song is depression. A girl who is always described as 'rolling' is a way of saying that she's suffering from depression. For those who have not experienced this, depression comes in many ways of pain. It's either from the chest or the head, sometimes it's both. In this case we're shown that it's the head case. I for once have experienced both pains but never two at the same time. It really feels as if the world is spinning. As if everything was in chaos while you're rummaging in your head on what to do.

It's almost like when fear overcomes you. It blocks any other feeling and takes over your mind. When we're talking about this type of depression, it's most likely that the person will start becoming a little hysterical. In the original video we see the girl is accompanied by a boy. This boy may represent her subconsciousness that was with her since the beginning. During the video we see the girl attempting to commit suicide several times by 'rolling' which will obviously leave a few scratches. But the picture shown after her 'rolling' is a miserable beaten up girl. We can say that she was bullied but there's no real proof to that.

We can't say that the boy is actually a childhood friend of hers. He was shown to have no reactions to her 'rolling' or her self inflicted injuries. If a friend would see those their common reaction is be worried and care for the girl. But in the video he just stands there as he watches the girl raising her hand only to ask him if she could 'roll' again. What proves my theory right is that he actually encourages her to commit suicide in the end the line: "Stop breathing, now." looked as if it was suggested by the boy. He had seen her chocking either him or herself. Which leads to my conclusion that he has grown tired of watching the girl 'roll' and suggested to "Stop breathing" was also like saying "Hang yourself". In the ending picture we see the limp (and probably lifeless) body of the girl in the boy's arms.

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original video from: Rolling Girl Miku Hatsune

Utauloid version from: Rolling Girl Mawarine Shuu

School Clubs (feat. Yandere Simulator)

Do Joining Clubs Give You Any Benefit?

Probably. Looking into Japanese culture there have been clubs for quite some time now. Students in Japan wake up early for school and gets home around 6:00 pm. Why? Because of club activities. Clubs need to be at least a group of five or more people, an available teacher for their adviser and a common interest. Without these requirements, a club cannot be formed. So... What do people do in club activities? Anything, but it has to be related to their club. It would be senseless if a science club started painting a portrait of themselves or the music club running on track for fifteen minutes.

These club activities can help boost your knowledge, skill and technique. A perfect example is the art club. During club activities the leader gives them an activity like sculpting fruits from clay or sketching their friend's faces. Before joining a club they would have to test your ability. For example, if you want to join the music club but can't sing or play any instrument, then what's the point of joining that club?

There is also a limit to how many clubs you can join. Some schools may allow two or three but in the game I'm featuring you can only join one at a time. In Yandere Simulator joining a club has major benefits. The twist is that if you leave the club you're not allowed to join again. This gives a nice challenge to the game.

Ayano Aishi (main chracter) and a few of her classmate's corpses at the back

Just like in real life, clubs in Yandere Simulator has it's different benefits that you could get from each one of them. There will be times where being in a club and joining club activities may become troublesome. An example is when you have exams, home works or even problems at home. This will cause you to lose extra time to be with your family and doing academic work. You lose something that's worth of gold  and once time passes, you can't rewind to a certain point of time and change things. You can only change the future from where you are now. Another loss is that what if you're tired from lectures and seat works but have club activities related to sports? Wouldn't that just drain every drop of strength you have left in you?

There was this one anime that I've watched before (I couldn't remember the title though) that if you don't join any club, you're treated as an outcast. You wouldn't get large portions of meals during breakfast lunch or dinner, you will be shunned by other people, you don't even get your own dorm! The main character had to sleep in the hallways in a sleeping bag! I personally think that this is ridiculous. Clubs exist for people to enhance their skills or kill time doing their favorite hobby. It's not a requirement for every student to join a club.

Lastly I would like to mention Yandere Simulator again. This game highlights the benefits of clubs. Another fun thing is that there are a lot of clubs to be in. It's not advisable to switch clubs frequently, whether you're in the game or not. It's unusual to see someone switch from one club to another within a day or a week. People usually stick to their favorite clubs so they wouldn't be leaving anytime soon.

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picture from: Ayano Aishi
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Cats vs Dogs

Who's The Better Companion?

We all know the saying that a dog is a man's best friend but what about cats? We've known cats since the ancient times where Egyptians worshiped them as as their "god". What is there to dogs that makes them feel so lovable? What makes cats so mysterious? I'll share some of my information about these animals.

Lovely picture of a cat and dog

Let's start off with dogs. Most dogs as we all know them, are friendly and playful. These are the two aspects that attract people to them. When people are looking for a companion, we look for company who are active and affectionate. Thus why dogs are preferred by most people. Us people tend to bend the nature of dogs. There are dogs who people tame to be guards. They're forced to be well-behaved and disciplined. There are dogs too who are trained to guide the blind. Such sad lives these dogs live because they can't be the dog they are. Instead they're being manipulated by people and are taught on how to live their lives.

Catch!

Moving into cats. It's true that most people dislike cats because they're almost the opposite of dogs. Dog's adapt to humans while we have to adapt to cats. Older people prefer cats since they're quieter and more matured than dogs. It's true that cats are lazier but also true that they show the same affection as dogs. It takes time for a cat to adjust to it's new surroundings. Once it does, it will most likely mark some places as it's territory. Cat's don't scratch your furniture because they hate them, they scratch tall and sturdy items to sharpen their claws. Just like how dogs bite onto shoes or other rubbery items they both have the instance to sharpen their "weapons".

All animals are equipped with some kind of weapon to defend themselves in the wild. Removing their "weapons" will leave them to feel defenseless. One example is the de-clawing of cats. People have come up with a solution to remove the cat's claws instead of cutting them repeatedly every other month but doing this to the cat is like removing the toes on your feet.

Cat vs dog both using their "weapon"

Cat's claws are used for their balance. After surgery the cats may or may not get used to their newly de-clawed paws because their born with an instinct to balance their weight on their claws. It will be difficult for them to walk if you de-claw them.

Both animals have it's pros and cons. First and foremost they're animals. Animals no matter what kind will stink. They all have a certain foul odor they emit. This can't be stopped but it can be prevented. Giving your pet a bath is the only way. The brighter side is that you get home you're companion is waiting for you. Both cats and dogs are excited to see their owner come home. You won't feel the dreaded loneliness plus someone is guarding your house.

I conclude that cats and dogs are not really all that different. They may be in certain ways such as body language but in the end they're still our furry companion.

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first picture found here: cat and dog

second picture: catch!

third picture: cat vs dog

final picture: dog and cat